Temptation

Yesterday, while at work, my manager bought a stuffed crust pepperoni pizza.

Let me tell you how disrespectful that was to my diet. Even though it was bad, I didn't eat the actual stuffed crust and I had 2 slices. Yes it was bad, but it was really good.

So yesterday was a bad day. I'm determined to get back on track today. I've brought my lunch, dinner and snacks.

But how does one avoid the temptation of bad food that tastes good and happens to be free???

Le sigh.

The Gym

Today is my first day in the gym in almost a year. So I'm clearly going to take it slow today. I'd hate to do some damage my first day out. I figure for the first week I'd hit the treadmill at a brisk walk pace for 30 minutes and do at least one round on the weight circuit (my gym has about 10 or so weight machines set to a red light/green light system). That'll give me a good hour workout and let me know just how out of shape I really am, which I know is pretty bad.

Another reason getting back in shape is so important to me is because I used to be a dancer and a cheerleader. Now I wasn't on the professional track for dancing but I was absolutely fit, flexible and fine. Like boom.

But I'm determined to get back there. I feel it!

The Invitation

Today, just a few minutes ago, I was invited out to lunch.

Let me tell you something, if there's one thing I absolutely love, it's going out for meals. I love to try new restaurants and food.

I told them no. It was one of the hardest things I've done.

So, here's my baby step for today: If I can make it to the weekend, without purchasing any food (especially without very good reason) then this will be the first time since I've graduated from high school that that has happened. I'll get into the economics of that tomorrow but hey, what's my motto? "Small victories and baby steps!"

Today was both! Keep cheering me on! I'm sure that was the first of many invitations to come. -_-

Joy

Today is day two of my 90 Day Challenge. One word to describe it is "joy."

I can't explain. I guess I'm joyful about where I'm head and proud that I'm finally taking steps in the right direction. I haven't consistently been on track in a long time and I have very low self-discipline (the act of disciplining or power to discipline one's own feelings, desires, etc.). If I want it, I'm going to get it. So not acting on that impulse is really a major step for me.

Like I've said before, it's really all about the small victories for me. One day at a time.

If anyone else is participating in a 90 Day Challenge of some sort or trying to make any lifestyle changes, we're in this boat together! Hopefully, with each step you make, you start to feel joy!

Small Victories

One of my jobs is in the mall, which means unlimited food court access.

All bad.

Today was the first day since I've started working there (almost 4 months) that I haven't gone to the food court for something. And I'm beyond proud of myself.

I brought my dinner, and snacks because I know my body isn't used to this low of a caloric intake.

It just reminds me that in this journey it really is about the small victories. You can only take it one day at a time.

And that's exactly what I plan to do.

90

Once again for the 99 and the 2000(14), here I am trying to lose weight. I've gained 45 pounds since high school (the last time I was anywhere near or at the CDC recommended weight). So thanks to the freshman 15, depression of 2010 and the infamous love chub, I'm forced to get back on track.

Not to mention, I'm getting married and I refuse to even think about trying on dresses until I lose, at the very least, 30 pounds.

And while I'm embarrassed to put this on here, here are my current body stats:

186 pounds
45 bust
40 waist
44 hips
14 arms
26 thighs
30.9 BMI ( so technically I'm obese -_-)

All bad. Nothing good.

But today's where it all turns around. I'm going to blog thru the good, the bad and the ugly cravings and hopefully in 90 days, I'll be well on my way to my goal.